Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Happy, 2009

Year 2008, all the while I’ve been waiting for this year and here it’s going to be an end.

The Year wasn’t as good as I anticipated, many things happened and things were beyond my control. Well, good or bad, it’s already a pass.
Now, some quick review of my achievements, just few months before, I...
  • Graduated in a College and University
  • Earned my first “bucket” of “gold” which the size of “bucket” I’m referring to is as large as a espresso cup
  • Lived in a different countries
  • Visited Europe
  • Visited Middle East
  • Visited Emirates Stadium
  • Fed myself with plenty of blardy costly but delicious foods

Anymore? Can’t actually consider those above as my “achievements”, can I?

Well, that was the Year.

I’ve set myself a few targets for the coming year, which is…




Get myself this




And this

Then…I wish to

  • Be ********* ** *****
  • Learn ** ** *****
  • *** ** travel ***** *** *****
  • Be **********
  • Do not *** *** *****
  • Save ****** **** *****
  • ***** my **** ****
  • ****** about ***
  • **** myself * **********
  • ** happy *** *** ****
  • ** *** miss *** ********

That’s it, my targets.

Year 2009, welcome to Pharm’s world.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

She Hurt Me!!!

IN February, I came to know a girl, L, who is a final year law student. I am 20 years her senior. Believe me, she is very mature, loving and caring for her age.

I was divorced 10 years ago and have been single ever since. I have a PhD in engineering and an MBA in management; I’ve travelled and lived in a number of countries due to my work; and over the decades, I’ve met many women from all walks of life, races, and cultures – but never one like L. In April, we confessed our love for each other.

In June, I bought a RM480,000 condo that I planned to give to her when we got married – she knew this. And over the months, I bought her expensive gifts, such as branded shoes and bags, a watch and jewellery; I even booked one of Apple’s iPhones for her as a Christmas present. I also told her that I would buy her a BMW when she started working after her studies.

Make no mistake, she never asked for any of this. I just felt it was natural for me to do this for her because of my love for her. For your information, I have never done such things in my entire life for any woman.

In May and June, she said many sweet and romantic things to me. Then came July, the beginning of her new semester. Two weeks into it and my instincts told me that she was about to cheat on me: she became overly sensitive, and constantly hid calls and text messages from me. But when I confronted her, she strongly denied that there was anyone else.

But by the last week of August, I could no longer stand the pain. She had changed from a very romantic and caring person into a cold, indifferent one – and she didn’t even realise it.
I realised that her attention and feelings were focused on a guy in her class, Y. When I questioned her about him, though, she denied any romantic feelings for him, saying that they were just normal friends.

But I didn’t believe her and got a print out of her phone’s activitiy from her service provider. I discovered that during those same months when she had been saying sweet things to me, she had been sleeping with another guy! There were as many as 40 calls and 25 to 30 text messages between them in a single day!

And yet, she still denied that they are more than just best friends. What idiot would believe that?

When I returned from an overseas trip in September, L called me and asked to meet up again. She promised that she would turn over a new leaf and asked for another chance to prove herself after realising that I was the man for her and that she couldn’t bear losing me.

So we went to Genting Highlands to celebrate my birthday, and I had a wonderful time. And she was really a sweet angel during that time.

But I kept my cool, I waited for the October phone bill. And I found that she had called and sent text messages to that guy during the two days that we spent in Genting. Physically, she had been with me but her soul and sprit were not. She lied again!

I really don’t understand why girls nowadays are so hard to satisfy. We never quarrelled, we had a lot of fun, and we have great chemistry – yet, she has feelings for someone else. Is it because she just likes men her age?

When my first girlfriend left me when I was 23, I felt hurt but I could understand it because I was indeed very poor at that time, and she wanted someone who could offer her the best things in life, not just pure love. But in L’s case, I cannot understand it at all because I can offer all that while the other man – a kid – is poor. Yet, she was not satisfied with me. Why?

Mr Idiot


The article was cited from Lifestyle, The Star. Does that sound similar to you? So does this means that this kind of case happens everyday? Indeed it is, my case is more or less the same. So girls, don’t always says that you are deeply hurt by guys, there guys that are deeply hurt by girls as well. So, can we guys really trust girls? Can we guys really trust our feelings? Can we guys really trust love?

Ful text at http://www.thestar.com.my/lifestyle/story.asp?file=/2008/12/21/lifefocus/2860351&sec=lifefocus

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

期待。等待。爱; Waiting。Hoping。For Love

这样做的话,会比较好吗? 如果当初不这样的话,现在会怎样呢?如果, 如果。。。


这就是常在我脑海里出现的问题

总是想太多了吧

有时候发现

不特别去想的东西

反而会自己出现

不特别想拥有的东西

都特别容易得到

不刻意等待的东西

总会来的很合时


然而


越不想失去的东西

就越容易失去

最想忘掉的回忆

却怎样也忘不掉

最想得到的东西

也最难得到


还是那句吧


最好的东西总是在你不期待的时候出现的,对吗?

多少次的无奈等待,却换来多少次的伤心失望?

多少次的用心疼爱,却换来多少次的心痛感慨?

多少次的真心付出,却换来多少次的流泪不止?

多少次的充满期待,却又换来多少次的心碎绝望?

也许,一个人的时候,别再期待,别再等待好吗?

也许,一个人的时候,别再用心生活好吗?

也许,已经习惯了那种无止境的等待


人就是这样吧


对自己最好的,偏偏。。。

不喜欢

有机会的,偏偏。。。

不把握

爱你很深的,偏偏

不珍惜

伤你最深的,偏偏

最爱她


从前


我不知道什么是寂寞

直到爱上你以后

每当想到无法拥有你的那一刻

我才了解

什么叫做孤独

而你

最后也不属于我的

最后,还是那几句

There’ll be hope when you least expecting it;
There’ll be a path when you least searching for it;
There’ll be love when you least dreaming about it

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Suddenly, I miss you, 突然好想你

突然好想你 - 五月天


Just another nice song by Mayday, love the lyrics, simply love this song...

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

I'm most afraid when the air would suddenly be quiet
Most afraid of the concerns that friends gave

Most afraid when memories would suddenly roll again
Hurting with no rest

Most afraid when suddenly hearing the news of you again


想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣

事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

If my longing had a voice
I wouldn't want it to be a sorrowful cry

Things have come to this far
And I finally belongs to me
Is just that i can't deceive myself yet because of the tears


突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈突

突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆突然
模糊的眼睛

Suddenly, I miss you
Where could you be
Are you happy or are you in grievance

Suddenly, I miss you
The sudden piercing memory
Had blurred my sights


我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

We are like the most wonderful song
Turned into two sorrowful movies
Why did you led me to the most unforgettable jouney
Then left me the most painful souvenir


我们那麽甜 那麽美那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们 还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

We were used to be so sweet, so beautiful so trusting
So crazy, so passionate
Why did we have to run towards our different happiness
And grow old with our regrets


突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈

突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

Suddenly, I miss you
Where could you be
Are you happy or are you in grievance

Suddenly, I miss you
The sudden piercing memory
Had blurred my sights


最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息

最怕突然听到你的消息

最怕此生已经决定自己过 没有你
却又突然听到 你的消息

I'm most afraid when the air would suddenly be quiet
Most afraid of the concerns that friends gave

Most afraid when memories would suddenly roll again
Hurting with no rest

Most afraid of suddenly hearing the news of you again

Most afraid when I had decided to live this life alone
Without you but then suddenly, hearing the news of you again

Translated by: blackrabbit2999. Edited by : Pharm

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Life At Qatar



It’s been almost a month since I reached here and life’s getting better, of course better than when I first reached here, don’t really wish to talk about that experience anymore. My friends, thank you for your caring, cause they had been asking how I am doing here but I always can’t respond to them because I’m always away. I’m fine here, thanks!

Life’s getting better, mainly because now...



  • I know more people here,

  • I got more friends here,

  • I got more works to do,

  • I got more things to learn,

  • I getting familiar with how things work here,

  • I’m getting used to life here,

  • I can find my interests here,

  • I can live my life here



Farewell party for Mr. Yee. Thanks for the invitation



Delicious!! Mr. Yee is such a good cook!




Sometimes I think, am I enrolling myself too much activities? I did said that I’m always away when I’m online right? Here’s the reason why.



  • When people go shopping, I follow cause I am quite a shopper.

  • When people go to eat nice foods, I follow cause I love nice foods.

  • When people go to dream about camera accessories and lens, I go with them and dream with them, cause I like photography.

  • When people go gym, I follow cause I wanna keep myself fit.

  • When people talk about travel, I talked too, cause I love travelling.

  • When people go golfing, I follow cause I wanna try something new.

  • When people talk about movies, I join, cause I love to watch movies.

  • When people go drinking, I join because I’m a drinker? No, just because I wanna test my limit of alcohol consumption.

Then, I found myself no more times for MSN, blogging and watching movies, which that is something I love to do. Argh, should plan my days better next time. Guys, again, sorry for not responding. Most importantly, all those activities I mentioned above are not cheap (although some of them are free).


Now I’m super-hyper over budget this month, because of all the activities I enrolled in.




Birthday party at Chilis






Happy birthday to Stephee





Edited by Stephee, now I know why the picture was taken 4 persons a time.


Chilis, TGI and Carls’ Jr have became my weekly meal, so = bankrupt
Keeping fit has became my daily activity cause I paid for a month’s membership, so = bankrupt
My dream about dSLR pops up every here and then, so sooner or later = bankrupt
iPhone seems like a popular choice of cell here, so sooner or later = bankrupt
My passion about gadgets is still burning, sooner or later I’ll get myself a Sennheiser or Bose headphone, so = bankrupt



Put aside the budget thing, those things are fun actually, moreover when you’re at a place where there’s not much things you can do. Just, shopping here is so different, they have Family Day here, and mostly it is every Friday or public holiday. So what is that suppose to mean? Family Day, another speaking, day for family, so when it’s Family Day, those shopping center will not allow group of guys from going into the shopping center, what kind of rules is that?

Now about work, I’m a QS. For those who do not know what is QS and what QS does, it is quantity surveyor, not quality surveyor, nor quantity supervisor (I heard it that day from my colleague, someone called her quantity supervisor).

My job description

  • Taking off quantity (Means measuring how much quantity of concrete, formwork, rebar etc for that particular task.)
  • Prepare claim (Means if required, re-measure and check the amount of money to be paid to the sub contractor.)
  • Doing site measurement (As it sounds, go to site and take the measurement of completed task.)
  • Budget control (Check for quotations and always seek a cost effective way to carry out a work.)
  • Liaise with Sub con (Talk and discuss problems or potential delay with sub con.)
  • Prepare overall progress report (Check the total work done and balance of work done.)
  • Emergency Respond Team (Do any top priority task.) <= sometimes this can be fun cause I can jump out from my currently-half-hang-and-made-me-sleepy-task.

Super large drainage system at the runway




This is a detention pond, steel bars all around




The Doka formwork



32mm diameter High Tensile rebar



At site



Emergency Respond Team. This is a top priority job cause top management have to use these drawing in the meeting tomorrow. End up 6 or 7 of us busy colouring the drawing using highlighter. It was fun though



Finally completed, about 40 copies of 4 pages drawings. Many highlighters were used


On the way to Doha Golf Club, why am I sitting in the middle?




Golfing at Doha





I took this, and I love it!!!



Just like in TARC before exam commence, we're doing last minute revision before going in to play. LOL



Thanks for letting me playing with your 400D

Posing...




Argh...see my tummy, I'm getting fat




Tell you more about life here in the next post; it will not be that fun. Why? Mostly because of the culture here. Therefore I have to observe longer so that I won’t give you the wrong judgment about the people and lifestyle here.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Far Away, 遠遠

遠遠 - 林宇中




林宇中 首次 全創作+全製作 專輯
干物世界】HOMELY LIFE 林宇中

2008 年,林宇中唱出了我的心情,遠遠...

或許我不再出現 愛才值得你懷念
你也不想見 見了也不變
你痛苦轉身的局面

或許我放的堅決 你才允許讓淚浮現
是苦還是甜 想起我的臉
希望不是眼淚的鹹

我只好離你遠遠 卻已傷害你偏偏
我不配 你的美
竟把你愛的狼狽

可是我離你遠遠 你越近靠在我眼前
已不見 你幸福愛我 的臉

或許我放的堅決 你才允許讓淚浮現
是苦還是甜 想起我的臉
希望不是眼淚的鹹

我只好離你遠遠 卻已傷害你偏偏
我不配 你的美 
竟把你愛的狼狽

可是我離你遠遠 你越近靠在我眼前已不見 
你幸福愛我 的臉

還欠你太多誓言我已沒資格實踐
為我緊緊貼著你的從前
而現在的我只好

離你遠遠 卻已傷害你偏偏
我不配 你的美 竟把你愛的狼狽
可是我離你遠遠 你越近靠在我眼前已不見 
你幸福愛我 的臉

在遠遠 你幸福 我會看見